I’ve talked a lot about all the incredible and beautiful qualities people with autism have (much like how everyone has)! However, we can’t have a rainbow without rain, so here is a sneak peak into the rain of an autistic person’s life.
One thing that can be incredibly hard for an autistic person is not understanding social interaction: It may seem for most people that social interaction is like learning to walk.However for those on the spectrum it can be an ongoing battle of understanding, usually leading to anxiety and low self-esteem (another symptom autistic people are prone to have).
I wrote this after I read Genesis in the bible. Although as a christian, I love reading it and learning more about the word of God.However, as an autistic christian, I am extremely sensitive to pain, so reading the old testament which was full of sin,is something I take literally and can affect my mood significantly.Therefore it is really important that I am able to look up and understand things from others perspective, and from this I understood that underneath the pain was a loving God who was faithful to his people!
You’re probably thinking, Phoebe we are hear to talk about autism not about God! But my experience is showing you that autistic people can be extremely sensitive to the world’s properties. For other autistic people, they may feel down after having a conversation in a classroom or workplace that involves a sensitive topic to them or being around certain people can make them feel anxious or sad….
BUT STOP RIGHT THERE, I don’t want you to read this and get down about it! it wasn’t meant or that reason (Don’t take it literally ;)). I’m telling you this so you can understand a person on the autistic spectrums struggles a little bit more. However if you are on the spectrum and reading this, I hope you understand that there is not something wrong with you to feel this way. BECAUSE GUESS WHAT!
I feel it too 🙂
On the other hand, If you are not diagnosed on the spectrum and personally feel that you have experienced deep sadness or anxiety from these reasons, know that you are not alone. Everyone is somewhere on the autistic spectrum, so it is normal for everyone to have one or two of these symptoms 🙂
But anyways, I think for everyone in this world no matter how many times we meditate, have a social media detox or watch a nice movie. Sometimes nothing is going to make us feel better and that’s ok. we can get sad for no reason, whether we are autistic or not!
But if you spend time with an autistic person or anyone in special needs for that matter. You are doing so well! Sometimes you may feel emotionally exhausted because you are not looking after your own problems. That’s why I want you to remember to look after yourself too! You’re are only human, and I would hate for you to feel guilty, because you are trying to be super human. So breathe, and know that your struggles are just as valid as a person on the spectrum’s struggles.
Hope you all have an incredible week in Lockdown! And want to give a BIGGG THANK YOU for all our amazing NHS Staff, can’t wait to clap for you on Thursday as well as everyday of the week in my prayers!
Sincere Self-Worth Clothing 